JIGSAW which PRICKS

Life has been a great leveller,

A great teacher who seldom retires,

who accompanies you in every turn

Words passing thru the strand, which I trusted.. is no more the same....

My emotions seldom gets registered,

My love seldom reaches there

My pains are seldom heared

But I trusted you my friend,

The job was well done, but I never expected to bring cracks on my mirror.

The cracks which gets filled not easily.

The cracks which seldom gets healed

which pricks, and continues to prick

like a never ending Jigsaw puzzle.. the jigsaw which pricks... making me learn the art of miscommunication... the communication which left my love gasp for breath, in between the stream of tears....

A Date with _____

Life has been a roller coaster ride, sometimes it gave more than I wanted some times it didn't. The hiatus of this occurrence was beyond calculation, with no clear answer for any of my question until the day I went for a date.

A date which changed my outlook,

A date which changed my attitude,

A date which changed my lifestyle,

A date which changed everything.

The day kicked off, with a raised eyebrow. Cursing the blanket which denied be the proper comfort "Aha can't these guys make a softer blanket"

A peep outside the window, took my eyes on to the garden bench where some one laid under a torn blanket, in the chill with out complaining.

But I was complaining though

Gulping up the breakfast, I commented..The same old taste, the same old food. Can I have something different.

A look just round the corner, saw a elderly woman, standing to get a left over, with out complain about anything.

But I was complaining though

Sitting in my cabin, doing the work, something irked me, Air condition was not at his best, I complained to get it fixed so that I could work in comfort.

A sip of coffee and peeping through the window, I could see mason's working under the hot sun, with out even complaining.

But I did

Leaving late night from office, complaining about too much of work, I pushed towards exit just to see the same security saluting me day in and day out, with out even complaining

But I was

Tired after a heavy workout, my hands searched for those energy drinks.I said "Aha wheres the fizz, its do dull with out the fizz"

Turned back and looked beside, saw a kid who didn't even have tasted a full glass of milk, leave alone these energy drinks. But he was not complaining, I was though.

Listening to the news all complained about the job cuts. Hue and cry echoed in the air. Feeling sad about these events, I headed to balcony just to see bullock being led to butchery after years of service for his master. He was not complaining, even when death was his co passenger.

The eventful date thought me a lot, thought me which I never thought of.Just went on complaining with out much thinking. Not any more though, everything has changed and changed after

The Date with LIFE

Confundido mamá

A uncertain broker in the wall street, undecided on what to do, ambling across in the taciturnity of the streets.

This was me for past 1 week... undecided what had gone wrong. All this started with a vibration in my trouser pocket , it vibrated till i said the customary word....

Me: Heeellloooo... Mom!!

Mom: Hi Son, how u being doing today.

before I could answer in came the next question..

Mom : R U alright? Is there something which is bothering you.Make u unsettle.

With eye brows raising inch by inch and the rusted part of the brain started creaking, nothing was clear

Mom : Son, life is not a bed of roses, even if you want the rose there are some thorns hidden in it. If you fail getting one rose, never be disheartened.

Aha this was the limit, I was getting frenetic.

Me : Mom, can I ring u back later, I am in midst of something.

Mom: hmmm....

I was confused... brain cells woke up interrogating the cause of this call. Chaos, turmoil, upheaval, commotion, muddle, mayhem what word should I use to describe my situation.

Few hours later with the curiosity reaching its peak, I decided to ring back Mom.

Caller tune sang : Ma Ka Ladla Bigad Gaya.... (from Dostana) (Means: Mom's Darling has been spoiled)

Curiosity matrix touched its peak.

It was dad who picked up the phone.

Dad: Hey Son...

Me: Dadddd.. wassup mate... Wherez mom.. is she not around

Dad: Yes she is... she is just busy reading your blog

Me: Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat My Blog

Dad: Yes Son... says thanks to your sis who found this secret out.

Me : Dad.. hold on... Did u read it..

Dad: Nop son, I will read it soon... U don't worry... Meanwhile you should have told me that you had an affair.How u guys broke....

Me : Dad .. those are just imaginations.. nothing is real... Is that what Mom wanted to speak to me in morning.

Dad : I guess so.

Ho my God.. Now I understood the story.. Mom read my blog as if she is reading my autobiography.. I tried to convince her that these are just my personnel musing, and no way related to my personnel life. Though some instance do.. not all.

She was not convinced, though she gave a Hmm in concern.

It was high time I decided to ring up Mom's personnel advisor.. My Sis....

Me: Sis wassup

Sis : Doing good Bro.. I am having your favourite shake, you want it dude

Me: Na sis, not in mood to gulp it..

Sis:(with a wicked smile) yea I can understand the feeling of Romeo...

Me: Hold on.. U know that I just write my blogs, and no way directly related to ma life..

Sis: yea I know, but this time I thought the other way... What ever U wanna me to convince mom.

Me : yea

Done deal was her answer, and must say she kept her word but...

Tea party at Cafe Coffee Day for Sis RS 500.

Red designer Saree for Sis Rs 3000

Convincing Mom about reality by Sis Priceless

For everything else there is a Credit Card

But to convince Mom its only Sister.

Unending Pain for a Days Happiness

Clock struck 6:30 pm... eye balls rolled in search of something. . unable to trace its still kept rolling, passing on the pulses to brain cell to the neck, which also joined in the search. Something flashy caught the eyes.. it was flashing, with a small vibration... sounded like a bee over a flower to suck its nectar.
As the bee latches on the the flower, he hung on to it and taking in near to his sense organ he whispered... "Hai"

Looking at the surrounding he rushed to the private corner, and made himself comfortable.He whispered "how are you, today?
In came the voice : fine.. and U?
It was the typical conversation between two loving hearts. He often accompanied her with his voice till she reached her door steps... a care which he could afford sitting some distance away.
The picture was rosier, love birds just fluttered around in joy, breeze made them comfortable. all ingredients for a smooth and love filled conversation. The pains were shared, the love was left what else more could one ask for.. Yes he was lucky to have it.
Not all things stand long, so did his fairy tale, twist in the tale came, when the relation had to be broken, for a reason which he never dreamt of. His mind was in turbulence of the sea, unclear as an avalanche.
Like the colors mixed in water, thoughts just disturbed his mind.He for that few hours did not realise what he was saying. He did broke her heart, with he himself disturbed. She was sad, she wept tears, and gaining all courage she said, words which he wished to hear.. It was the pain for her for that moment...
A turbulence of non sense ideas, glacier paced smart thinking made his brain hibernate. Once the hibernation was over, he found himself in a no mans land. All alone in this world. It was 6:30 no more vibrations on his cellphone. No more whispering Hello.
He ringed the most familiar number to him, after few rings in came the voice he treasured most.
She was happy to see him call, after few round of apologises things started falling in place, just to find out that the base on which they had built this relation no more existed. She has moved on, moved on to a new life which she got not by choice but by chance. She was happy though.
She was sad for one day, but became happy ever after that, but he was happy for one day but sad ever after that. Mistiness in his mind cleared turbulence lie deep beneath with out any notice. He had to accept these line to be satisfied for rest of this life, yes of course in her dreams

Sometimes we hurt in order to grow,
Sometimes we must lose in order to gain,
Because some lessons in life are,
Best learnt through pain

The Wolf Howls - At Last

I was happy with my daily routine, at least i was enthusiastic enough to write a blog every month. Fresh Lime Soda was fizzing daily... hits started getting counted from around the world.

Comments section showed the increment in the comments.

Lime was squeezed and the nectar extracted. Aa all the good things should come to an end naa.. my manager blooming jealous of superb time management decided to sharpen my skills by sending me to a time management training.

The resistance was high from my side, but he was decided. Like a horse who had no other choice to run with the cart, I was also forced.

Enter the scene of training, the fizz from lime soda cooled me on see the those scenes. Girls filled in the room... with quite a few gentlemen around. I was feeling like a cowboy entering the scene...

Making sure I sat next to one of the busiest corners of the training hall, i made my self comfortable. I never missed on making my neighbours also comfortable. Going on a introductory speer I made sure they did not miss my name...

Hmm err was I in for a time management training... or communication training.. Err I am now confused. Hearing bits and pieces from the tutor, and concentrating on make sure my neighbours understood time management well was the agenda in my book.

The day ended on a happy note... with smiling bye, keep in touch comments just made me float like a pollen grain.

The bits and pieces of the teaching from training which I introduced in my life, took me completely out of track... Err I was implementing only the half my learning.. rest half gone for a toss...

Like the financial recession in the current economy, Misty dew too faced the same recession. Months went with out any post... Fizz from the lime soda went off....

Then came the rescue plan... My neighbour in training came up with a solution which I missed from training... aha that helped... though the fizz was lost.. but I decided to howl at least once on a full moon day.. hence born the howling Wolf... the wolf is howling again...

Special Day Called Onam

Onam never has been better than this...

The smell of fresh air,

cool breeze from the paddy field

fresh water of the pond

all these which I never cherished, are now worth more than words for me.

As my Granny say, Kannu ullapol athindae Vella ariyi illa (You never know the worth of your eyes when you have it)

For past 24 years Onam was like yet another festival for me, mostly spending time in front of computer, or office and watching the snaps, nothing more.

With life getting busier, Kerala just in dreams, it was a well deserved break. Thanks to Dad for forcing me to come home.

It was quite special... with a complete battalion of relatives waiting for me, to land, cousins whom i haven't met for years, only source was Orkut and Facebook to meet them. Uncles and aunts who almost forgot me. It was nice to see everyone getting together.

There were some curious onlookers to eager to watch me, yea the new members in our family, Sis-in-laws, Bro-in-laws who have just heard about me, never seen me (may be once during marriage function) and some of the little wonders, who celebrated their first Onam.

It was fun, It was not only me in this scenario, they was 5 such wonders like me, whom the complete family wanted to see... rather witness our existence.

Day started with we all being pushed out of bed as early as 6:00 am, (aha At last i saw a rising son), asking to take bath in the chilled pond.. it was fun to say.

Then the traditional foods... fats, carbohydrates were not on top of mind. It was just enjoy dude.

After a heavy breakfast, sat on to narrate the IT adventures to uncles. It was as if I had come from a war front.

There were few budding professionals, who now had a rethink about their dreams.

The Best place was the kitchen, and where else should I be in between ladies its fun dude...

As soon I dashed to kitchen, I was handed over the coconut and was advised to start grating.

Not sure how many coconuts I grated. But it was fun..

Lunch time... was yet another epic. It was non stop serving of dishes. I almost ended up gulping everything. Spoons and fork were away, hand were busy. Licking of payasam was a special experience which I forgot, thankfully the trace of that art was remaining in me.

Three days passed on like a whisker, but left is impression on ma mind. to be cherished for long.

The end result was ma happy mind, but a unhappy body, I had gained 4 kg in 3 days. Gods know how many weeks I have to spend for getting it reduced.

Bangalore here I come back... Aha Do i smell Namma Banagaluru some where....

Tagged... and brought back to blogs

A tag to bring me back to blogs by Fly away mind after a long time... Thanks da for tagging me..

Last movie seen in a theatre?

Race and Bal Hanuman :D, actually i do watch all movies @home, so hardly get chance to go to theatre.
What book are you reading?

None.My favourite books are home for termites now.

Favorite board game:

Monopoly... Man it goes for hours and hours, if the opponent is smart

Favorite magazine:

Auto magazine like Overdrive, Autocar India

Today's Favorite smells:

Petrol, Paint and Axe Deo

Favorite sound:

Rumble of waterfall. Sound of ma nephew

Worst feeling in the world:

When I feel I have been left out.

What is the first thing you think of when you wake up?

10 more minute

Favorite fast food place:

Ice Chariot in Cambridge Layout. The cost is nominal, chaats are good so are the dishes

Appu's Thattukada : All stuffs are tasty.. :D

Future child’s name:

Mmm... first let me find a mummy for the child :D

Finish this statement, “If I had a lot of money I’d…”

Wud buy few plots & flats in Kerala,and Bangalore, rent it out, and enjoy for rest of my life in Dubai Plam Island

Do you drive fast?

Ahha.. Speed Kills but Thrills... so I love the thrill

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?

Naa... I have a pillow besides me, which I used to hug always, since I was 1year old.Pillows changed as I grew, but habit remained.

Favourite drink

Lime soda ofcourse and Kasmiri Shake which I had first time from Kasargode and now from Empire in Embassy Golf link Business park (shake name is different here though)

Do you eat the stem of broccoli?

Ahha to write this tag, I had too..

Storms - Cool or Scary?

Cool ahaa... Noo super cool...

If you could dye your hair any color, what would be your choice?

Coloring, I know the difficulty in keeping ma hairs intact and you wanna now color it as well...

Name all the different cities/towns you have lived in:

Jabalpur (M.P), Trivandrum, Kannur, Kasargode (all in Kerala) and Bangalore (Karnataka)

Favorite sports to watch:

Cricket and football.. and yea Tennis, Ladies only :D, exception when Nadal and Frederer play

One nice thing about the person who sent this to you:

A bubbly, chatterbox and down-to-earth person(Sometimes she goes under the Well to prove that she is even better). All this once after she became my friend. :D

What’s under your bed?

Call James bond to investigate. :D Actually I am hygiene freak, so u can guess

Would you like to be born as yourself again?

Yes… y not, sorry if u have an eye to take ma place, no luck

Morning person or night owl?

Morning person during office days, on weekends night owl

Over easy or sunny side up?

Over easy, If u wanna serve me sunny side up, make sure u give me lots of pepper.

Favorite place to relax:

My garden at home..with Bruno and Tipu besides

Favorite pie:

Apple pie, when u say pie first thing come to ma mind is American pie . :D.

Well watched all the 6 volumes

Favorite ice cream flavor:

Vanilla, Mango and tuti- fruti

You pass this tag to: Anyone reading this interested let me know. I will tag you