Leaving late night from office, complaining about too much of work, I pushed towards exit just to see the same security saluting me day in and day out, with out even complaining
November 09, 2008
Leaving late night from office, complaining about too much of work, I pushed towards exit just to see the same security saluting me day in and day out, with out even complaining
November 06, 2008
A uncertain broker in the wall street, undecided on what to do, ambling across in the taciturnity of the streets.
This was me for past 1 week... undecided what had gone wrong. All this started with a vibration in my trouser pocket , it vibrated till i said the customary word....
Me: Heeellloooo... Mom!!
Mom: Hi Son, how u being doing today.
before I could answer in came the next question..
Mom : R U alright? Is there something which is bothering you.Make u unsettle.
With eye brows raising inch by inch and the rusted part of the brain started creaking, nothing was clear
Mom : Son, life is not a bed of roses, even if you want the rose there are some thorns hidden in it. If you fail getting one rose, never be disheartened.
Aha this was the limit, I was getting frenetic.
Me : Mom, can I ring u back later, I am in midst of something.
I was confused... brain cells woke up interrogating the cause of this call. Chaos, turmoil, upheaval, commotion, muddle, mayhem what word should I use to describe my situation.
Few hours later with the curiosity reaching its peak, I decided to ring back Mom.
Caller tune sang : Ma Ka Ladla Bigad Gaya.... (from Dostana) (Means: Mom's Darling has been spoiled)
Curiosity matrix touched its peak.
It was dad who picked up the phone.
Dad: Hey Son...
Me: Dadddd.. wassup mate... Wherez mom.. is she not around
Dad: Yes she is... she is just busy reading your blog
Me: Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat My Blog
Dad: Yes Son... says thanks to your sis who found this secret out.
Me : Dad.. hold on... Did u read it..
Dad: Nop son, I will read it soon... U don't worry... Meanwhile you should have told me that you had an affair.How u guys broke....
Me : Dad .. those are just imaginations.. nothing is real... Is that what Mom wanted to speak to me in morning.
Dad : I guess so.
Ho my God.. Now I understood the story.. Mom read my blog as if she is reading my autobiography.. I tried to convince her that these are just my personnel musing, and no way related to my personnel life. Though some instance do.. not all.
She was not convinced, though she gave a Hmm in concern.
It was high time I decided to ring up Mom's personnel advisor.. My Sis....
Me: Sis wassup
Sis : Doing good Bro.. I am having your favourite shake, you want it dude
Me: Na sis, not in mood to gulp it..
Sis:(with a wicked smile) yea I can understand the feeling of Romeo...
Me: Hold on.. U know that I just write my blogs, and no way directly related to ma life..
Sis: yea I know, but this time I thought the other way... What ever U wanna me to convince mom.
Me : yea
Done deal was her answer, and must say she kept her word but...
Tea party at Cafe Coffee Day for Sis RS 500.
Red designer Saree for Sis Rs 3000
Convincing Mom about reality by Sis Priceless
For everything else there is a Credit Card
But to convince Mom its only Sister.
October 26, 2008
As the bee latches on the the flower, he hung on to it and taking in near to his sense organ he whispered... "Hai"
Looking at the surrounding he rushed to the private corner, and made himself comfortable.He whispered "how are you, today?
In came the voice : fine.. and U?
It was the typical conversation between two loving hearts. He often accompanied her with his voice till she reached her door steps... a care which he could afford sitting some distance away.
The picture was rosier, love birds just fluttered around in joy, breeze made them comfortable. all ingredients for a smooth and love filled conversation. The pains were shared, the love was left what else more could one ask for.. Yes he was lucky to have it.
Not all things stand long, so did his fairy tale, twist in the tale came, when the relation had to be broken, for a reason which he never dreamt of. His mind was in turbulence of the sea, unclear as an avalanche.
Like the colors mixed in water, thoughts just disturbed his mind.He for that few hours did not realise what he was saying. He did broke her heart, with he himself disturbed. She was sad, she wept tears, and gaining all courage she said, words which he wished to hear.. It was the pain for her for that moment...
A turbulence of non sense ideas, glacier paced smart thinking made his brain hibernate. Once the hibernation was over, he found himself in a no mans land. All alone in this world. It was 6:30 no more vibrations on his cellphone. No more whispering Hello.
He ringed the most familiar number to him, after few rings in came the voice he treasured most.
She was happy to see him call, after few round of apologises things started falling in place, just to find out that the base on which they had built this relation no more existed. She has moved on, moved on to a new life which she got not by choice but by chance. She was happy though.
She was sad for one day, but became happy ever after that, but he was happy for one day but sad ever after that. Mistiness in his mind cleared turbulence lie deep beneath with out any notice. He had to accept these line to be satisfied for rest of this life, yes of course in her dreams
Sometimes we hurt in order to grow,
Sometimes we must lose in order to gain,
Because some lessons in life are,
Best learnt through pain
October 25, 2008
September 21, 2008
July 18, 2008
What book are you reading?
July 14, 2008
This was the punch line which governed us through out, be it vanishing from hostel, going out on a wild goose chase on weekends. It was fun, no one to care and bother.
Kids were our biggest enemy, there silly question, loud crying for nothing, always insisting on winning the game, and if belongs to the lower age category gosh the scare of pee.... Ahaa kids and myself never go hand in hand.. so was the case with ma friends. I just used to rush through the back door if mom brings in some kids from neighbourhood, just to spoil my room and once all done she says one comment "Kochu allae da" (he is a kid right!!)
The torture does not end here, while travelling the kid in the front seat make sure he turns back and looks at me as if he is seeing a ancient creature. With Mom besides to encourage the kid by making all nasty noise.Boy, but did something change now.
My partner in all these crime has changed.
Now when we are in supermarket, he smiles at the babies,
When ever we invite him for weekend party, he just backs out.
He is hardly seems around after office hours.
Weekends, he is always busy
All these because he is now a Dad.
He just wanna spend time with his kid. And the very same guy makes sure when ever I visit him, he says to his son, look Son who has come..... and places him on ma lap....
It's evolution, I never expected him to change like this.. but my belief was wrong.
Aah... I doubt now "Boys will not be boys always, they mature to Man one day"
Hey am I smiling at that baby, sitting besides me....
May 13, 2008
Now I realise
She never placed me in her eyes, I was not the apple of her eye, because she feared, the tears could drown me, instead she kept me in her heart.
Everything came with an expiry date, but her love never
The God picked up a flower, dipped it in dew, loving touched it, gifted it to me and said Son this is for u. Take care of her.....
Impulses broke my nap, and it triggered a new impulse, dialed a number, and on hearing the sound which I now wanted to hear more... I said
And this time I really meant....
May 01, 2008
Wind distributed the chill..
The ripples of the water were shinning in the moon.
Once in a while few guest peeped out of the water to see us.
Getting a glance, was their mission I guess.
The wind continued to comfort us, hair flew over the face.Soft hands cleared them from my face.
Candles smiled like the sun, engulfed by the darkness
Aroma of the dishes kept poking our nose
Eyes to eye contact was disturbed by the sizzlers, with their aroma filled smoke.
With occasional talks, dishes found their way into our stomach,
leaving few residues besides my lips, just waiting for a helping hand to clear them off. The scenes moved fast, munching the popcorn's we enjoyed the each and every moment.
In between few comments were passed on,
just to evoke her anger buds and a reciprocal reaction in turn.
A blanket engulfed me at a glacial pace
Darkness surrounded me, which I never noticed until when
No one was there to comb back my hairs
No one was there to clear ma lips
No one was there to poke me
I was not alone, I am now with ma friend Solitude.
Tears go unnoticed, dreams go unsaid, emotion goes unsaid.
Waiting for someone to return, and return soon
April 26, 2008
all are in a hurry, to wait was something seen as an offense.
April 23, 2008
Every time when calender shows April 14, clock strikes 4:00am, I hear a sound calling me, piercing deep inside my conscious, breaking my sleep... but those soft hands covered my eyes, and guided me to heaven were a superb and mind awakening decoration waited.
Seeing those yellow coloured flowers, load Krishna idol, and loads other stuffs which were supposed to make my year ahead filled with joy and splendour.
All in the house woke up to this beautiful view, but for my mom, she was the person who decorated it, but what about her vishukanni, what about her year ahead.. no one thought it, at least not me.
Mom all over world woke up early to decorate the vishu kanni, sacrificing their luck, well being for family. When asked all said, you all come in front of us first, then ourselves.
I was moved, but this Vishu things reversed.
Mom was not at her best with respect to her health, I knew she would find it difficult waking up early in morning to bring us joy for the year ahead, but felt she would forgo her health for us.
It should be our endeavour to make ma family prosper only to leave Father Time bear testimony to the zeitgeist because ‘A journey of thousand miles begins with a single step…’
I decided to take the step, this time before mother could wake up, ma sound pierced her sleep with eyes blind folded, it was her turn to view the most beautiful vishukanni created by dad for her, which she might have forgotten long long time back...
Once the ritual was performed tears poured from her eyes, she did not expect this...but once all was done, i felt the best feeling ever we had.the best ever vishu...
April 04, 2008
I was treated as a celebrity, its not quite often they get to treat their son... thatz why...
The agenda of the topic was about installing new software into the Laptop (me)
Database base administrator (DBA, mom) had invited Software quality analyst (SQA, Sis) for the discussion. The discussion was supervised by Chief Information Officer (Dad).
DBA: Son Laptop, We know you are meant for computation on mobility, but its time you decided to install software WIFE 1.0 into ur hard disk
DBA: No Son, u can compress few data's as well as delete unwanted softwares.
Laptop: I doubt if WIFE 1.0 will be compatible with my processor. I need upgraded to the latest version before…
SQA: Nop Bro, your system is all set to accept the new software, U have required resource, and capacity with in you to run this software, with out any serious issues.
Laptop: Still the antivirus software won't enable me to install WIFE1.0
SQA: Eyebrow rose... Do you have a Girlfriend 1.0 version installed in you?
Laptop: Rejecting the system access request to SQA, and denying any further permission
CIO: Son whatz bugging you about this installation
Laptop: CIO, I am afraid if I install wife1.0 it will give few unexpected errors.
More over in addition Wife 1.0 installs itself into all other programs and launches during system initialization where it monitors all other system activity.
DBA : So???
SQA: But this patch can be disabled if laptop has a strong hard drive, and prevent unwanted installation.(SQA is quite intelligent, she is the operating system in Laptop Bro-in-law)
Seeing installation of software nearing, Laptop throws in few more exception errors in front of all
Laptop sends in an encrypted message to CIO which said: CIO, monthly lubricating softwares like Kingfisher 1.0, Foster 2.0 will no longer be available.
Laptop: We can forget all these impact, will software WIFE1.0 be compatible with DBA and SQA. Will WIFE1.0 give permission to DBA and SQA to access laptop any more? We may have to install a lot of patches when ever there is an authority conflict.
DBA was quick to take a note of it, I have lot of patches with me, and you just need to forget about it.Laptop is shocked, system becomes slow…
We can’t afford the loss of this customised laptop.
Do give a rethink about this installation, son. We need to invite proposals from various software vendors. Meanwhile you are a standalone system now, you now need to upgrade to a server and have few local area networks connected to your sever. You need to upgrade son.
Laptop was confused; he started connecting to fellow laptops all around the world. Some of his beloved laptops were upgraded to a server already, Laptop contacted everyone...
Connections were established..... what did the fellow laptops say....?
March 30, 2008
I just wanted an excuse, and I had it this time, no looking back, no more thinking, I rushed after wearing my driving gear, I was off for my favourite hobby, Driving In Rain.
I was communicating with the drops, my message started becoming part of those sent form amber. Think he was not complaining.. Driving slowly across the road my eyes suddenly lost concentration...
My eyes fell on her, running for a shelter
She was weeping, and yelling once in a while
All turned deaf ears to her, she was not complaining though.
Separated from her dear ones, she was not at all comfortable in this new territory
Before I could notice more, I had zipped passed her, leaving the slide view of those images in my mind.
I became restless, there was now a bond which was created, She touched my heart, no she stole my heart and I have left it behind. I have become Heartless.. I wanted it back, but it was with her.
How can I ask her?
Who is she?
How will she behave, when I talk to her?
Not caring about these questions, I decided to rush to her.She was not there, my eyes kept searching, there she was, taking refuge in the bus shelter.She was alone, she was beautiful, but still, every one ignored her.I parked my bike, and walked to the bus shelter, questions kept pouring in my mind.
What the people around will think, would I be branded as an "Eve Teaser", with all courage I went forward.
Now I was near her, by-standers started noticing me.
Removing my helmet, my eyes met her eyes, the brown eyes were confused, water kept dripping from her head. On seeing me she took a step back, scared, she was confused.
Not knowing her name, I called her to me, using action, but she still was confused.
I was being watched, by all.Now I had no other option, but to win her confidence.
I touched her wet head, she was shocked. I held her hand, it was soft as a sponge, nails were long, before I could feel more, I felt the hand slipping from my grasp in despire.
She was completely confused, she resisted, but just for a minute, once she felt comfortable her eyes spelt confidence.She smiled, and knew I was there for her rescue.
Sharing my jacket with her, we marched towards to my bike.
I was not sure, what I was doing; but believed I was correct.
Let the world blame me, my conscience would never.
I did what I felt, and I am correct.
Overcoming the brief resistance, I was able to win confidence from Mom and Dad.
Now it's 4 year past this incident, she lives with me, she is ma love, she is my best friend.
She is Nuerie, The Labrador Retriever , My Love
March 23, 2008
She loved me, but I ignored it
She waited for me, but I was too busy
She is Faraway, but I now realised how close she was to me.
I missed her, the relation drifted away at glacial pace,but one fine morning, all was over
The glacier had sunk, leaving me searching
I was not ignoring you, instead I was setting up my career for you
I never admired your attire, but it never meant I was not liking them
I teased you, but I never meant to hurt you
I commented on your negative, but I always saw more positive in you.
I shouted at you, but it was filled more with love rather than anger
We never said we liked each other, but it was all in the air, it was there in our minds, but not in our lips... but it was too late...
You now remain in my dreams
You still rule my heart
You are not in my rear view mirror, but in my windshield
Your absence is the presence which I feel day in day out...
You are far away from me, beyond my reach, but I wish... I wish
March 10, 2008
Suddenly when the nap broke it was 5:00.... with sleepy eyes, unsteady steps, disturbed hairs I marched like a drunken man towards the face wash.Made my self presentable and sat near the window.., with Kitty on lap, ma eyes are waiting in anticipation, ears are wandering to hear that particular sound.Hands busy patting kitty, but mind was somewhere else.. like the cold breeze blowing my sense were all over the places..
Suddenly all sense join hand and re-enter my body.. assertiveness is the mantra of the second.
Smile slowly broke off my lips.. eyes were targeting those white polythene bag... the silence was broken by the vibrating sound of the motor.Like an hero entering the scene, Dad made his entry.. Mom opened the gates... She walked towards the door, in hand were the polythene bag, I rushed to the door racing against those electric pulses before it reached those sound producing machines call Calling bell.
I stood on the door, with a smile, with a hug and kiss mom greeted her son, who looked neat today.After exploring those polythene bags and savouring those yummy's she brings often on returning from office... my concentration shifted to Dad. Who started with normal Q&A session.
The day was special, it was month end, and I have been waiting... my purse is gonna be heavier.The pocket money time.
Like a bride standing in front of her new Groom, I stood in front of dad... leaning across the door, coming back and front, breaking the silence with the creep.... the sound waves start their journey ..
Me : Daddyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...
Dad: Deaf ears to me....
Me : Again.. Papaaaaaaaaaaaa... Achaaa...........Dadddddddddddddddddyyyyyyyy
Dad: With a smile.. yes Son...
Me: Pocket money...
Dad with a smile, takes a note from his pocket, this note was kept separately, just for me, with a kiss on forehead he hands me that currency note. Saying thank u i ran to my room, opened my purse.. It was filled with those currency notes, 10 rupees notes, fresh and crisp. This time the count of notes were five in the purse.Half century. Five months earning. I was happy.. I could get the Milkybar truck. .I was not found of Milkybar, I was found of that truck, there were 5 bars, 2 goes to Sis,once each for Dad, Mom and Me.
The happiness those currency notes provided by Dad were beyond explanation, the joy I had collecting those were beyond hobbies.Even though many times the currency do accumulate in my account they are just dead currencies, nothing more, they do not have the love of my dad, who made sure he kept a currency note for me aside from his salaryI wish those days could return,
I wish I could still peep out of window to see dad and mom coming in Scooter,
I wish I could cherish the savouries Mom brought for me again
I wish I could ask Dad for pocket money
I wish I could share the chocolates again with all....
I wish let the eye drops on my hand do evaporate soon....
March 07, 2008
Sometimes I keep mine to myself
But that doesn't mean your foolish
And you know
I don't want anybody else
And you can say I love you
Like hello and goodbye.
Well I don't say it very often
But you know
Thank god for that difference
When we both understand
A woman and a man
March 02, 2008
February 22, 2008
Me: Looks like your mug is in bad shape, as u were away.
One of our manager had a wrinkled eye brow on seeing that cup,She only said, ask the office boy to clean the cup properly.
February 06, 2008
Hoo life was same, and work was bit boring for some period, i decided enough is enough, need to amble out possibities to entertain me while work.
I was thinking in sleep, walk, talk, yea I was thinking while i was potting 2.. :)
Eureka I got it, I decided to get my self an MP3 player. Rushed in and got one for me, all the time my ear was busy, all songs were playing Hindi, english Malayalam and some tamil songs.
But again the same probs started, I was back, the same mania, just to add to the list same songs... :-(
It most times played hindi songs..... :) but the catch was the waky jokes in between songs.. like Chamrajpet Charles and Ghanta Sign.
next day again the smile blossoms... confusion in air again... may be he is happy as some girl might have proposed him ( ho gosh when is that day comming)
Once my manager gathered all his might and said, u look very happy while working, ur enjoying it a lot, I wanna my team to be happy like this... Gosh I was now puzzled, Am i Really loving it...
I nearly fell out of ma chair... crashes every where, I said, u felt like that, did u not notice some thing in ma ears, I was listening to some comedy show in Radio and hence the smile.... but KK I am definetly enjoying ma work. Hope the bonus does not get reduced.... will it?????
January 28, 2008
January 27, 2008
January 20, 2008
Whattttttttttt... Salsa and cricket.. is it a the wrong post under the ....
Hey not at all.... To get to the preview, it was long i put on my dancing shoe.Always dreamt of having a show of my own in stage ... to it was decided i shud try a hand this year....
So I ringed in Mr A ( ma partner in all crimes in company)
Me : Munna urgent come to phone booth .. Jaldi
A : Kya huva munna, okie here i come
I took my laptop and moved with Mr A to phone booth. Ma manger gave a look up, his look showed he was impressed... Inter team interaction. this boy is rocking ( hopefully he was thinking in that way) I was so notorious in ma company I am made to sit just in front of my manager, Head of Technology and Business. :)
Mr A was totally confused about the meeting... we was wondering whats the new stuff we gonna cook up...
I meeting started. dude we need to learn Salsa or Cha cha... Anyways we are performing the cinematic stuffs, how about those professional....
Mr A.. mm sahi hai.. i 2 was thinking.... U have any plan
Me: Yea, therez a center near ma flat, how about that....
Yea we can ask Ms N suggestion, We rang Ms N and made her join for expert advice. She advised thatz a great place. All the best
Clock struck 5, I said good bye to all and me and Mr A ran to the Salsa center
We entered the center
A smiling lady in front welcomed us. For some second I forgot i had come for admission... Teenage blues huh...
Now to point, We introduced to that lady say Ms K
Me : we came to register our names for the salsa classed
Ms K : ho welcome sir, plz be seated, U came at right time, our next batch is gonna start 2mrw.
Me : ho yea.. then enroll us for it, its Beginners right, it would be fine.
Ms K: okie sure sir, It would cost Rs XXXXX
Me : Yea, please go ahead.
She took down my name, then came the questions
Sir your partners name;
Me : Mr A
Ms K : Pardon me Sir
Me : Mr A
Ms K : Sir it should be a gal partner.
Me : Hooo I just forgot ( how i forgot the partner issue) I needed to get one...
I looked at Mr A in confusion
Ms K : Misunderstood ma Look she said, Sir U need to have a gal as partner..
Hoo gosh, my integrity was at stakes now.....
Me : Totally confused made the biggest mess when I asked her, don't u have any one with you....
Ms K : what??
Me : realising what i just said , I reiterated, can you please suggest similar girls like us who does not have partner.
Ms K : sorry sir not anyone at the moment
Me : My eyes fell on the display board, I said, hey why don't you put up a notice in one of those boards....
Boy.. I cud see steam coming out form Ms K's face.....
Now after making some calls to Ms N in office for the search, which all went in vain.
I was totally sad on seeing my dreams crashing like an avalanche of snow, was this the global warming all talking about, Now I started realising the sex ratio I had read in class 9th text.Now i understood its significance...
When I was about to leave I said good by to Ms K, and a casual talk, I asked r u the instructor... She said smiling Ho no.. I am just a staff.... I do not know Salsa
Boy my partner is here, my mind said, but i never expected this pulse from the brains to be converted into those audible sine waves which will strike the ear drums of Ms K, but it came out, may be due to the avalanche of excitement.
before any harm could have happened, Mr A and I left the scene.....
Hooo gosh learning Salsa is not that difficult, but getting a partner is......
Now I for the first time felt the dis advantage of being Single.... ;-) no regrets though....
Now I am busy doing my Aerobic classes, and know who is accompanying me there......
January 19, 2008
January 01, 2008
Last week of the year as usual office was buzzing, and the superb weather of Bangalore added to the splendour, every one was deciding on the party for new year, shopping for new year.. All were ready to unleash the wallet on anything that caught their eyes.
Some were unhappy with the party destination, some were unhappy with the suit and the list just grew bigger……
For me I decided to take off from everything… and get the much deserved rest. It was about 11:00 pm when the little devil rang…. Tring… Tring…tring it was ma frnd Rahul….
Me: yeaaaa… Rahul
Rahul : dude…. Ma car just ran out of gas….. come and pick me up…..
Me: Okie dude in 10 mins
I put on my jacket and rushed to the spot to pick up rahul…..
Picked up Rahul and rushed to the oil station to get some gas for his car.
Boy he was complaining about the chill in the weather. He said this jacket is useless, it never keeps me hot, and then he turned to me asking why I did not bring in the car, since riding in bike was too cold.
A smile from me thru the rear view mirror answered his question. Now he started complaining about the club which was supposed to host the party.
Dude the club sucks…. Nothing much to boast about only fancy lights and some drink, as usual dude, why can’t they do some thing special. I had spend few thousands naa….
I had no answer for this question. A simple mmm was my answer.
I had to stop at the junction because of the traffic jam.. Yea traffic jam at 11:00pm it happens only in Bangalore….. New Year eve dude
As I stopped my eyes fell on an old lady setting up her bed on the footpath…. She was not complaining about the chill in the weather, even she only had a tore blanket, and not the expensive jacket which I am ma friend wore. But we were complaining.
From this stop we rushed our way to the fuel station, as my friend was getting the oil into the can, I was waiting outside. I saw a small hut made of tarpaulin, he was mending it, with his family inside, safe… mm I guess itz safe. Looks like he was also complaining, not like us about the party, but looks like for some money for making his dream house. So was my complaint we made was a valid one????
My mind was like an ocean, it was quite unstable, I just took Rahul and dropped at his club. I gave some excuse and I ran away. On the way saw a small street vendor selling jackets, got one and gifted one to the old lady on the streets…. The surprise in her face the smile in her lips was really some thing beyond explanation. Yea I did it… for the first time in life I felt like I have done some justice to my existence on this planet.
I felt I had the best New Year celebration…. This really gave me the feeling and I thanked god for all the comfort he had given me, and offcourse I think I will think twice before I Complain about any thing.
Yea I made a screaming break before I entered 2k8. A well deserved pit stop break.